Depth of my life

You ever sit and watch something as simple as a game show and get chills? Well tonight I was watching "A minute to win it." with D and saw these twin sisters on there talking about how much they valued their father and how he always made a point to go to all of their games, whether it be volleyball, softball, or basketball. They considered themselves as tomboys with quite the competitive edge. This show the father was said to be at work and so the girls brought their boyfriends along for added support. This game is quite the college kid game and can definitely show off ones talents when it comes to difficult but fun things to do when you have no money. So it makes sense that it's so popular, especially in the economy status.
Anyhow... These girls had gotten up to 5K and shown that they were struggling on getting ziti on a spaghetti noodle. Well, they turned to their boyfriends for added support and then the host showed the girls a video of their dad cheering them on. Giving the girls a speech about how he said they're going to make it and that he believes in them and all of this and that... So they carry on and won the 5K. The next game came along (I forget what it was) and they didn't do well on it, so the host reflected on how great they're doing as did their boyfriends and audience members. The host asked the girls to turn around and there stood the girls father and the girls broke down in tears of joy, so thankful that their father had come to cheer them on. They got all the way to 50K w/out losing another life line once their father was there cheering them on. It was that added support that they had always had even when their father worked two jobs. No matter the circumstance or situation, their father always made it a point to be there for his daughters!
Now, how does this affect me? Well, here's the thing.... The more I look into how strong a daughter's bond is with a father, the more I realize I'm not that golden child that my father should see me as. Yes, every once in a great while I hear, "That's good!" or "Do what you need to do." but more times than not I hear "How's it feel to be raising yourself?" or "Nope, can't help ya." or "Well, what are ya gonna do? Bitching and moaning doesn't get ya anywhere.". So the moral to this is.... Every time I see the happiness of others with their family, I die a little inside. My family is so distant when it comes to "support" and God forbid we use the word "love" in our family. The word love is something I never heard growing up from my father. I rarely heard it from my mom until I was a teenager. As for my brother... I heard "I love you" for the first time from him in February when I went home to surprise him. So, yeah, that bond is really far fetched. It's funny how ONE word can build that bond that should be between the family members.
Here I am now, after all of the years of hearing "Women tend to be in relationships with those who remind them of their father.", however, for me, it's the complete opposite. I have someone who says I love you over and over again within minutes, and shows real compassion and support instead of the beat around the bush type of love. What I did get from my father is the shitty way of communicating my love. I have this issue with expressing myself to the ones I do love because for so long I never knew that love existed.
You know, I turned 30 the other day, I didn't even get a phone call from my father, or brother. I understand my brother being busy and man is his life full of things to get done on a deadline. But, as for my father, I called him the day after my birthday to speak with him about a personal matter and I didn't even get a happy birthday then. I of course didn't tell him it was my birthday because he was on too much of a rant fest about how someone ran into a telephone post and how many problems that caused him. I did get my yearly e-card from my brother, which again, I know he's busy, so for that, I'm thankful he remembered.
I will say this, it's shitty that every time I see a Mom with her daughter enjoying the wedding dress shopping or even just the ability to hang out, I can't help but look at what I've lost. My mom was that supportive crutch, even when we were fighting. No matter what, she made sure that she was a part of my life, and not one day would go by without us acknowledging our faults in our "communication" and try and fix it. Nor would she ever forget my birthday, and it's not just because she was in the delivery room having me, but it was because she loved me entirely and would never turn her back on me even when I was wrong.
I still remember when I first found out that Linda was hiding letters and cards from me when I was living with my Dad and her. I remember how heart broken I felt every birthday I spent away from my mom, and to me there was no communication between us for that special day that she always made me feel special. Then when I found that Linda was hiding all of those letters and cards from me, I seriously wanted to choke her! She not only hid them from me, but she opened each and every piece of my mail as if she was trying to make a statement. From that moment forward, I hated Linda, entirely. I never really cared for her prior to then, but that moment took any kind of respect I may have had away completely. I remember approaching my Dad about this and he said "We did it to protect you." as if my mother was some kind of animal for sending me letters to make sure I was okay, but never got any correspondence from me. But she never gave up sending notes or cards. She kept trying to get a hold of me, even when I didn't write her back. That was the time that ALL bonds really broke apart for my father and I. He defended her for opening everything, and told me I could pack my stuff and leave! I'll never forget that feeling I had on that day--betrayal, favoritism, neglect.
Then when I went to see my Mom for the first time in several years, she picked me and all of my stuff up from the DMV in Bel-Air, MD. and greeted me with arms wide open and it was as if she and I hadn't missed a moment. We picked up right where we left off, we went shopping, had lunch, and I moved in immediately! I lived with my Mom for 2 1/2 years before she passed away in my arms suffering a massive stroke! Unlike any other moment in my life, I had never been more uncertain and fearful as to what my life brought next. I was all of 16 and hadn't spoken to my father since the moment he chose Linda over his own blood. Thoughts were a whirlwind and fears were maximized fearing that I'd either be sent off to social services or back to my father, whom, I was still in pure disappointment with.
Thankfully, my brother stepped up to the plate and took full responsibility for me, but man that was a road that has many potholes. Being that we both just lost our Mom, we were both on edge with one another quite often. I think we spent more time either at work away from one another, or in our bedrooms away from one another than we did even speaking to one another.
After 10 months had passed since Mom had died, I contacted my father and was shocked to be informed that no one had told him about Mom's death. Boy, was he a bitter man for that! I guess with good reason, but in reality why would it matter when he was so far up Linda's ass that Mom being gone should have only been a sure way for him to move on without any kind of interference. I mean heck, this was a woman he had been with for 7 years at that point, and yet still no plans for remarrying. I guess that's what you get when you find your new girlfriend at an AA meeting....
Being that I was still only 17 when I had "reunited" with my Dad, he never once asked me to stay with him to regain ground for myself after the loss of Mom... I should have known then that the compassion would have never grown back completely. Him, bitter because no one informed him of his (still) wife had died, and me, bitter because his girlfriend had interfered with any type of possible trusting relationship between us.
Now, here i sit 13 years later, I had my father walk me down the isle, I've reminded my father of TWO birthdays and all of the rest have been missed since I was a child, I had D meet my father when we first started dating and he actually approved of him, I've been told "I love you" once since I was a child (don't even remember if it was said then) for the father/daughter dance at D and I's wedding, yet I still think of the ways he could change and think of all of the good times and laughs he's given me. While the bad times outweigh the good, I still can't help but see the good in all of the mess that's been created. But, I will say, once again, when I see family being loving, I put up this defense barrier because I feel it's never been something I was surrounded by. Although after that defense barrier is up, I can't help but wish I were able to express love in the same way they are!
And like I said previously, I've been able to marry away from all of that crazy unhappy crap! But, D sees how much it bothers me, and wonders how he can fix it. Man, there are days I wish he could, but then again, like I told him, I don't want him to fix it, I just want it to be RIGHT! and not half-assed!

Attitude Child!

Man OH man! Claire has truly pushed me over the edge these past few days! It started Saturday with her half ass helping with the route. She turned to me and say "I don't want to do this! I'm tired." I explain why it needs to get done and if she doesn't help than she doesn't get paid, plus it takes longer for it to get done.
Then yesterday D was studying and I was interrupting him since I had nothing else to do... But I realized that I should get some things from the grocery store and when doing so I took her with me. The attitude of "Why can't I have it now?" was thrown in my face when I told her that she needs to earn the bike that she wants so badly. Then when we came home she is in my face trying to find out what I'm doing instead of reading or doing something productive. At the dinner table, D was biting his nail that is bothersome to him, and she looks at him and says "And what ARE YOU doing?" as if she's an adult asking a child! I then asked her why she thinks it's okay to ask Daddy something in that tone? She responds with, "I was confused as to what he was doing." Please take into consideration that this is a smart child who seems to be CONFUSED a lot and responds with that statement for almost everything and I've told her to stop saying it. Then when I ask her to do something yesterday that she didn't want to do, she responds with "Huh? What?" and then she'll answer you afterward, showing that she did hear us after-all! Then last night she says she needed water before she went to bed and shows me that the brita water pitcher is almost empty before she even pours anything out of it. I told her "Leave it alone Claire." She then pours herself a glass, instead of taking one of the FOUR bottles that are opened in the fridge of hers and leaves the brita pitcher on the counter, empty. I can't drink the bottled water due to it's taste, and she knows that's why we have the brita pitcher. But, nope, she insisted on taking the last of the cold water within the container instead of drinking out of her bottled water that she takes to bed every night, anyhow.
Then today..... Instead of asking for help with her cereal (while I'm standing RIGHT BESIDE her) she scoots past me and says "I'm going to get my step stool." I said "Claire, instead of just asking me for help, you're going to go upstairs with the milk uncovered and cereal opened up, to get your step-stool? I'm right here!!" She asked me and I got one down for her, and I responded with "You're welcome Claire!" And she responds with "Yes ma'am." Instead of THANK YOU. Then with her pissy attitude that continued on throughout the morning (mind you it's only 10:02am while I write this) she went upstairs and I went to the post office to drop a package off. I came home and she was sitting on her bed and I asked "Claire why are you sitting on your bed?" She said "I think I am punished." I said "Oh, okay then, you are punished." So I go downstairs to get some coffee and when I'm coming back upstairs to talk to her about her lack of respect for authority figures and she's off of her bed playing with figurines in her dresser. I said "Claire, what are you doing? You're punished." She responded with "I don't think I am anymore!" OMG....... The summer has JUST begun and this is what I have to deal with? Oh boy it's going to be a looooooong summer!

Busy bee, hooray for Summer

• Well, I started a new job. I thought I wrote about that in the last update but evidently not. I'm walking about 6-8 miles every Saturday and now soon to be Wednesday/Thursday as well. 
• Claire is helping me out, but man can she get snippy once she's worn out. Two weeks in a row, she's been getting to a point and she becomes some kind of vulture of sorts. 
• After just working on Saturday I received a phone call from my supervisor offering me the Wednesday route that had just opened up beginning June 29th. For 80$ extra a week and for much less work, I rearranged my school schedule to work around so that we can start the route. 
• Claire's getting $5 a week for the route as it stands right now, but once we start up the other route, she'll be getting 10$ a week. Plus if she helps around the house, she'll get a few more bucks chipped in there, also. 
• This being only the second week into the route, I was surprised by how much faster it went. Last week we started at 9:15a and didn't get done until nearly 7p. Granted, I didn't bag enough product due to inaccurate amounts given at first. So we had to come home and bag the remaining of the product. But, today we started at 8a and got done at 2:45p. So 10 hours last week and only 6 hours and 45 minutes this week. HUGE difference. Plus we made less stops which was nice also. 
• It was MUCH hotter this week. Last week we delivered in the beautiful 70 degree weather, and this week it was mid 90's and humid as all heck. We started earlier this week because there are some storms that are said to move through and we didn't want to take the chance of dealing with those. However, we did get a few drops on us from a mid morning shower. Truthfully though, it was welcomed considering how sweaty we both already were. 
• Here are some animals I've come across during the route, just two weeks in:

This kitty was our first customer last week and she was the most friendly kitty ever!

This kitty was just straight up lounging! Didn't care about me coming near 'em at all.

So freakin' adorable! Laying on it's back relaxing to the max.

Now onto Claire:

• Claire has finished 2nd grade and is due to start on August 29th through her new school. She'll be home-schooled and is really looking forward to it. 
• She finished with another level higher in reading, honor roll, math award, appreciation award, effort honor roll, honor roll for the entire year.
• Here soon we'll be getting a pool pass to go to the pool and work on her swimming lessons too. I tried to sign her up for swimming lessons over the summer but they're full at the YMCA. But, I'm still gonna work with her on our own time this summer, even though it's going to be a busy one.
• For all of Claire's hard work this year, she's going roller skating with some of her friends next Sunday.

Onto D:

• D made Presidents Club this term, which is a nice bonus for him come two weeks from now. 
• D's kicking ass on his schooling. I'm pretty sure he'll be getting Deans List this quarter.
• D has chosen to go to Kings Island for Father's Day, so we'll be doing that come June 19th! This'll be our first time going ever!
• D starts toward his career of choice next quarter and is really looking forward to knowing what he wants to do while in college and afterward as a career!

And lastly, me:

• I start Early Childhood Development (ECD) studies on the 27th.I'm pretty excited about it. I really feel secure in this decision and look forward to a great future within that field. 
• I went to campus on my birthday to see some of the SMA's (student Medical Assistants) that I was in class with all the way to the point of me leaving the program, that mean something to me. I must say, I don't envy them. It sounds shady but to be honest, hearing all of the crap they're dealing with within the program is SO unprofessional. I am extremely thankful I left when I did. It took me going back after this much time has passed to truly feel 110% confident that the decision I made was the right one. I can't even get into some of what was said, but the program is still full of drama, unnecessary stress, and so many OSHA violations it's ridiculous. 
• I'm thankful to still have ties within the SMA's however I can already feel that I've grown apart from all that once was. I'm okay with that now that I know that it's for more obvious reasons than presented prior to this encounter. 

Social Events soon to happen:

• My brother is coming into town in July and we're going to Cedar Point for the first time! Steve's been there several times before, but D, Claire and I have not been. We look forward to it big time!!!

Things that are happening around the house:

• We're tearing up the carpet and laying hardwood down throughout the house.
• We're choosing paint colors so that before we lay the hardwood we can have the room bright and clean in color(s). 
• We're buying area rugs for the hardwood floors so that our dogs don't freak out once all of the carpet is gone.

So, yeah, I believe that's everything for now. Now you understand why I'll be busy at least! Have a good one everyone!!

TRX is not for Fibromyalgia patients

So my brother has begun to train for the 5K in New York here soon, and began training for it. He has a personal trainer who noticed his one ankle is weaker than the other and they said the way to best strengthen it is to do TRX training. So, he's been doing that for a couple of weeks now and told me that he sweat like a pig when the work out was over and he does it weekly.
So, I cancelled my training on Friday because D had left the mailbox key in his jacket, and needed it to retrieve the mail. Plus, I was in some pain with my shoulder too from playing the wii tennis a couple of days previous. When I called to cancel they asked if I'd be interested in joining them for the TRX training on Monday and that it'd be free. So I thought, heck, yes, I'll do that! Signed up for it and went about my weekend.

Saturday was Rachael's wedding and we drove to Pittsburgh Saturday morning. While it wasn't as long as the drive was to MD, it was quite long! I hadn't seen this part of D's family in years, some had been as long as 10 years! It was so nice to be invited to something revolved around this part of the family and it turned out absolutely beautiful!

It was at a park and the weather was just perfect! Rachael and Jason did their own vows and Rachael made me along w/ many others cry due to how beautifully written they were. Jason truly was at loss for words after hearing them too. I of course was the inappropriate one who blurted out "Top that!" as Jason was passed the microphone to say his vows to Rachael. I felt so bad for doing that, but man oh mighty her vows were amazing. 

After the ceremony we all hung out together and had a great time. Claire and her cousin, Alex, played and ran around like crazy. Rachael and Jason and the Musser family had a great idea and got a photo booth rented for the favors that everyone got to leave with. The one stipulation was that we had to wear props. Oh man, these turned out awesome! Here's what D wore

Claire also got some additional pictures with Alex, Grams, and Aunt Kerry. The cool thing was that we were able to take the pictures with us that were taken in the photo booth and Rachael got a CD of all of the pictures that were taken as a token for her own. That was one of the coolest ideas I'd ever seen for wedding favors. 

So we drove back on Saturday around 8p is when we left. D was done for only moments after getting into the car. Claire wasn't far behind him. So we got home about 1130p. Thankfully with it being such a beautiful day, we were able to keep our dogs outside for the time we were gone and they had their food and water out there while sunbathing all day long. 

Sunday was a recover day. One that we didn't wake up til the earliest being 10a. I didn't get out of bed until 1140a. I was so wiped, I hadn't taken my meds until after we got home and they tend to take some time time kick in, so I didn't go to sleep til nearly 4a. D worked all day on homework, Claire and I went to the library, and I cleaned out the cars! I washed the cars because of all of the flies we killed on the way home. Then I vacuumed the inside of both of our vehicles and made everything look great. Great until I realized that the bottom where the brush to pick up things was smoking. I didn't think to pull up the bottom of the vacuum and well, I killed the vacuum because it was trying to eat grass and rocks... :( Oops!

So Monday at 11a, I go to the TRX training class and man, that's seriously no joke! It is there to help strengthen your weakened areas... Well, I believe that was all of me! The balancing thing was well above my abilities and I couldn't do a lot of the different tasks the instructor was showing us. But, there were other areas that I excelled in... I made sure to do my hardest on those. Well, I guess I over did myself. When I left to come home I felt my legs feeling like jello. It was like damn! So, I came home and did the laundry and whatnot, and well..... went to bed after seriously PTFO on D's shoulder while "watching" a movie. Through out the night, I was tossing to get "comfortable" and was in a huge amounts of pain. I felt HORRIBLE when I woke up at 730a. I went to get out of bed and I swear, no exaggerating, my legs felt like they had cinder blocks on them. Both of them, not just one! I went down the steps to get myself some breakfast and wow... the task to get there was more than ever before. So as I arrive at the kitchen, I wobble due to being so unbalanced. D quickly helps me and told me to sit down and he'd get my breakfast. All day has been one of the worst days I've ever had! I feel so unstable. So yes, TRX is not for people who have Fibromyalgia, that's for darn sure!

Yesterday I saw an ad on the television that was for a new drug that's being tested on the market for Fibromyalgia and before I even knew it was for Fibro, I kept saying yes to all of their questions. Then it came up that they were looking for candidates for a study that they're running. So, I called them yesterday and left a message. I got a call back today and went through the pre-testing screening and evidently I'm exactly what they're looking for. I got another call from the study coordinator and she's delighted that I'd be interested in the study. Right now they have four people who have begun the study and need a few more people too. I figure I have nothing to lose. Perhaps this is something that'll allow me to further better treatment to those who suffer from the problems I have. I go tomorrow to set up all of the details, and it's nearby my house too, which is beneficial. Plus, I get reimbursed for my time and get monitored by the doctors there to see my reaction to the drug. I'll update more about this study as it goes on. Though, do know, I may be moody because I have to discontinue my meds prior to starting this new drug. 

*GASP* Harley just put her head on my leg and OMG that hurt so darn bad! Even she jumped!

Well, I think that's about all. I'm gonna go and lay back down, and just pray that this pain lessens! I've taken some ibuprofen, but no pain has diminished as of yet! Oh the joys of having Fibro! :(

Content

You know, the last time I wrote, it was more of a bitching fest, this time will be different. Evidently I have failed to inform people about my plans in the future, so here it goes; list form!

~D and I are renewing our vows in the summer of 2013 in Finger Lakes, NY (as of right now). We're working on the details, but it feels that it's a beautiful place to start.

• D and I started off rather rough in our relationship. Lots of drama and even uncertainty for so many reasons that were never fully explained to people. He and I want a fresh slate with no unnecessary hurt or sadness.  

~D re-proposed to me a few weeks ago at the Rose Garden and gave a real proposal on bended knee.

• He stated, "You deserve at least one of these done right!" 
• When we got engaged, he asked me while laying in bed "So would you ever marry me?" I responded with, "Yeah, I believe I would." And bam, that was the proposal! LOL Romantic right? 

~I have switched my major of study to Early Childhood Development.

• I want to be around children and become a part of the community in helping children who aren't in a structured household. 
• I want to excel in this because I feel every child should have a "friend" to talk to, when everyone else has turned their back.
• I think this will also help me with understanding the thought process with Claire as she grows up also! Which in return will allow our bond to grow stronger!

~I begin working on the 28th of May for "The Bag"

• I'll be delivering coupons, flyers, advertisements etc., for local around the town grocery and dept. stores.
• I'll be getting paid to work out basically. 
• This'll give Claire and I something to do together. I told her that if she helps me bag the ads that I'll pay her for helping me out, therefore building herself a savings!
• It's only on the weekends, so I can still focus on my studies during the week and it'll give me something to occupy my brain instead of constant studying, and over doing myself for school.
• This job will allow me to save up some money so that my hubby and I can have a REAL honeymoon instead of a honeymoon w/ no money to do anything w/.
• This job will also help w/ making finances a little less strained around the house when needed. 

~Claire will be enrolled in Ohio Virtual Academy Homeschooling starting this fall!

• D and I have had enough with public schools and all of the bullying taking place within the school.
• Claire is getting picked on and punched by fellow classmates and nothing is being done about it, so now it's time for us to take action and make our child happy until we can get into a school district that isn't so ignorant to smart children who want to learn.
• There is a lot of problems with the city school system and the information that the kids are being taught is so behind that it's more draining for me as a parent and Claire as a student because it's too easy. I know that may sound odd, but honestly, it's very true! If a child can't advance then what's the point in dealing with all of the crap being dealt?
• Claire is looking forward to being home-schooled. She wants to be challenged and she's willing to work hard to make that happen for herself. 
• Sick days won't matter because she will be at home, not infecting other students with her every year sickness, which makes her take off from school for several days at a time if it's not monitored properly. 

~D, Claire and I

• We plan on moving. We can't stand being so close to creeps around here. We are surrounded by assholes who don't know how to behave themselves. They were obviously raised by animals, therefore turning into one themselves. We're pondering on where to move. At this point it's something that we're unsure of exactly, but we are looking past moving to MD. There is just so much crap going on there, that personally, it's not worth being IN MD. We'll likely move closer to MD, but far enough away to keep out of the drama mix. 
• We're all very happy! Things are looking better for us this year, even though there has been several changes for us over the past couple of months. Such as, D is going into Digital Design instead of Radiography. Claire getting home-schooled! And me, well, going into teaching instead of Medical Assisting. 
• Evidently I've pissed off some people for walking away from something I once thought was my heart. However, I've reconsidered and am doing things for ME, not everyone else! If you don't like my choices then you can either walk away now, or live to accept change in the same way I have. 
• This year is going to keep getting better! To those who want to step in and try to tell me how to live my life, please leave! I don't need your negativity thrown my direction and I don't want the bullshit that comes from you thinking my life is YOURS to run!

Well, I think that's about all! I believe everything that I've stated is pretty new news for some.
Thanks for reading!

Life has many different twists and turns, but it's about making the ride fun, otherwise it'll drive you insane.

So, it's official, I am no longer in the Medical Assistant program. It's unfortunate to a point, but there's not much I can do about it. My hands constantly shake making phlebotomy quite difficult for me to succeed in, and considering that's a HUGE portion of what Medical Assistant's do, my career wouldn't have lasted out in the field. When I walked away from everything I walked away knowing I've done all I can do and well, to expect anything more than that would be unacceptable. I'm going to get into another field that'll accept my health condition and not fail me for having it.
It's been rather crazy around here, trying to manage everything that hasn't been managed for weeks or rather, months now due to the constant school schedule between D and I, and also Claire. Claire has been having some difficulties at school with bullying and well, it's something that really isn't being taken care of. Claire has come home since we've approached the principal on this (last week), and said that she was punched in the chest by a boy named Mohammad. But, when she approached the teacher (substitute), they said to just sit down and that it was too late in the day to go to the office about it. What the heck is going on in this school system where if you're punched and it's later in the day, it doesn't count? Man, I'm so flippin' mad about how this school is ran.
D and I have been working on getting information together for her schooling and getting her on a regimen for home based schooling. We've done quite a bit of research and found a school named K-12 that is still considered public school but is done through homeschooling. We need to get her information transfered over to this school from West Broad Elementary so that she can begin in the fall for 3rd grade. The perks certainly outweigh the cons on this decision. Here are the pro's:
~She'll have a graduation ceremony when she graduates given she goes through this schooling system from start to finish.
~The school has a prom for the kids once they are of that age to attend.
~The teacher is one on one instead of one on 30+ students
~We, as the parents, have the opportunity to meet her teacher one on one also
~The school is a semester and a half ahead of regular public schools
~The success rate for graduates within this school is 95% of those who attend
~The grading scale is that you have to have an 80% of better to advance where as regular schools, as long as you don't have an E, they still pass you
~More than 90% of the students who graduate from this school are accepted in high end colleges, such as Harvard, Yale, etc. without having to attend a Community college first
~Of course the obvious, no teasing, bullying, or hitting from other students. Plus, dress code doesn't matter, you can be at home and be in your PJ's, as long as you do your work, they say nothing about what you wear.

Additionally, since we have the YMCA membership, Claire will still have the opportunity to be a part of other children's lives instead of becoming anti-social. Plus we can work on her motor skills at home on a more regular basis. Then on top of that, if the public city schools are closed, then she'd be able to still do classwork and homework instead of being bored. Oh, then there is the fact that it's structured, much unlike what Claire is going through right now. Claire's teacher is there at most 3 days a week! And I mean that, AT MOST! It's become quite insane on how these kids are expected to behave but end up having more substitute teachers in there than they have their own within the classroom.
The big thing is, Claire is very much interested in this. She has brought it up to us that she wants to be able to be challenged and have the ability to not get picked on everyday. She's getting quite irritated with how everything is going for her classroom. It's gotten so bad that the substitutes have left notes about how the children were uncontrollable and the "regular" teacher has stated that if they're that way for the next substitute then they're going to lose recess for the rest of the year! C'mon really? You're going to take recess away from ALL of the children because of a few who were acting out? Then to top that, you're going to take the only OUTLET for these children away from them so that they can become more antsy within the classroom and act worse? Yeah, that doesn't seem like the solution that needs to happen! To me, those who were acting out need to be sent to the office if it's that bad, and then those who weren't that bad need to go to the playground and run out all of the energy they have so that they can focus on their work once they're done playing and socializing. Oh and perhaps if the school didn't give the children a snack that consisted of a shit-load of sugar, then the ADHD children wouldn't be so antsy therefore not in such desperate need to act out.
I've wanted to write this out for quite some time now, so pardon my rant.
Thanks for reading though! :)

7 year Wedding Anniversary

Happy Anniversary to us

7 years after our I do's he asked me to renew my vows with him

Amazing how years fly by and our love remains stronger now than it was then.