Who am I?

As a follow up to one of my previous posts as to who I really am, I'm going to clarify who I am within this post. I think bullet form is likely best for what all I have to say because organization isn't very likely if I just write. So lets begin:

Who I am

• I am a mother who has such a strong sense of love for my family that if I do not interact with them on a regular basis, I feel separated from the world and don't know how to function properly. 
• I am a wife to a loving husband who has loved me unconditionally from the start and I'm so thankful for the love he's shown me.
• I am a housewife. While life is busy and all of the outside activities keep me busy, I still manage (somehow) to keep up with my household needs.
• I am someone who does not put up with bullshit. I won't take crap from anyone even if it's something subtle.
• I am a loyal friend who tries her absolute best at keeping in touch with loved ones. However as of lately, I have been failing terribly at doing so and for that, I truly apologize.
• I am someone who has such a great love for animals that if one of my "babies" gets injured I turn into a doctor to them and assess any problems immediately. 
• I am unhappy with school and it's entirety. I have found that my heart was truly in Medical Assisting and once all of that blew up (health problem wise) I lost touch with everything that really mattered to me in the schooling area. 
• I am a drop out of college, at least for the time being. My heart is not in it as it really should be. The passion for the 2 fields I have tried over the past 6 months has honestly been a joke! I swore that I'd be happy within teaching because I love kids, but then I realized that it's too stressful for me and with my health, it would be quite the disadvantage. Then I figured I'd go for a degree of SOME sort in Medical coding... Well, honestly, I'm bored with it and I've learned nothing within it. The classes that I am taking are so unlike anything I want to be in. I think over time I will find a passion for something within a field, but for now, it's best to stop wasting money and just focus on my job, house, and family.
• I am a damn good cook, and honestly want to be able to use those skills. I want to be able to make great food that doesn't just come straight from the freezer into the microwave because I'm too busy.
• I am a mother to a daughter who's in need of a Mom, not just someone she works with. It's so hard to hear your child say "You don't have time for me." in her own words. It makes my heart feel so empty and unhealthy. My child is my world and honestly, I'd give up everything (except for my husband, and brother) to make sure she is happy and healthy. Her ways of thought recently have not been healthy at all, and it's taken me months to really see this.
• I am someone who has abandoned her child for the past 3 1/2 years to attend school. Yes, I used the word abandon because in her heart, she feels that but doesn't know how to put it in words. 
• I am a hard worker! While my job, to many, is pointless and really senseless and less advanced than many jobs, I actually like it. I enjoy talking to the residents and I feel I've built a bond with them so much that, their dogs come out to greet me at my truck as I'm getting ready to deliver to their street. I honestly really enjoy what I do, plus it's free exercise and it's allowed me to manage my weight rather well.
• I am someone who wants the best for everyone and I think that's why I've kept myself in school for so long. I've thought over and over again that it'd better our family and strengthen us, however, it's done the complete opposite. It's made the bond I should have with my daughter slowly disappear and my stress level increase beyond belief. 
• I am a heart patient. Up until recently (for about a year now) I never knew that I could have heart issues. Even though I don't want to go to the doctor to get it accessed, because I fear the outcome, I know I need to, not just for my state of mind, but my family's too. I have rapid beats per minute and it's a concern to my family doctor who has seen the increase not get any better. I went to a Cardiologist about a month ago and he wants to perform stress tests along with an Echocardiogram. I was all fine with getting that done, but the doctor, I really do not care for. He blamed my chest pains on my Fibromyalgia. The two conditions are COMPLETELY UNRELATED! I'll likely be scheduling this appointment here soon so that I can actually find out if it's something to be worried about or something to dismiss.

So, that is what is going on with me.... I hope that you all understand why I've been such an emotional roller coaster as of lately from this posts description. Thanks for reading!